{Is It Worth It?}

{Chorus}

All I know is pain; all I see is rain, waiting for a change (waiting for a change)
Every day the same, chasing after fame, I should be ashamed,
Tell me is it all worth it, worth it, worth it, worth it (1x)

{Verse 1}

Man I don't know, lately I've been running around in circles
Drinking away all my sorrows till the last drop in every bottle
But I don't think that I'm able to focus on my life; it's doubtful
Cuz the boulder on my shoulders' getting to heavy to the point I'll crumble
I'm always in my room; moved far away from home
And now I'm alone; trying to focus on my dreams
But it seems I don't belong; no one picks up the phone
What's the point of being known if there's no one on my team
So I lean on this rap shit; telling myself it's worth it
Using it as a remedy cuz I'm not ready to admit
That I haven't been the same
And I'm the one to blame; now I'm tarnishing my name
But I can't turn it around; I can't tell you what's wrong
I've just had this giant void since the day that you are gone
And I'm feeling hopeless, I'm helpless; can't focus
Cuz since you left me I feel like my mind is voiceless

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{Verse 2}

People see me but they don't see I'm unhappy
Cuz I hide behind a mask that blocks away my misery
My history is literally a giant lost and for a while
It seems my mask is melting off cuz I can barely smile
Women approach me but I don't really want to get to know them
Cuz my heart just turned to stone and I'm afraid to fucking show them
I use to care and want to help, but now when they talk about their problems
I just want to fucking leave but then I fall in the 'asshole' column
So I stay far away; rather have no one by my side
Cuz I have crevices in my face from all the tears I cried
Now they're dried out and are a part of me till I die
Now I dive in this music; wondering is it worth it
If I hadn't lost you suddenly would I still use it?
As a tool to find company; rid me of this agony
I guess being lonely is my destiny

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{Verse 3}

I still have pictures in my room of when you we're still here
Reminiscing every night; always wishing you we're near
Now I'm sleeping with seven pillows cuz I'm lonely
I tap bitches on the daily but that love shit's phony
Remotely, no one can compare
To the satisfaction and emotions I would feel if you we're there
Emotionally, I'm shutting down slowly
Blocking every shot you take at me like I'm the perfect goalie
Constantly pouring my soul in these songs
Never released them for so long; people said it's dead wrong
They're my remedy, my therapy; I don't want your sympathy
I'm just looking for somebody to remind me that it's all worth it
That there's light out of the tunnel when I get out of this bullshit!
Thought I could handle it but I can't - Damn
Before I chase my dreams I need to find out who I am...

(Chorus)